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met up with jiemin at her house for the annual TK gathering and lots of catching up.. with people who are here and not. of cuz, significant shift in topics that we talk about. things like future plans, marriages and career starts to pop out on top of the regular 想当年 kind of things.we started to discuss alot on the marriage of one of our supposed clique member. loads discussed but not suitable to be posted on blog. we just wish her luck in her marriage i guess. relationships and marriage... hot topics in recent times. and i suppose this is the start of all that "when are you going to get married" kind of crap till the time we all really do. and from then, it will start to proceed to "how's your marriage life", "when are you going to have kids" and that sort of crap. is the human development stages really that crappy and nothing for us to talk about besides unfolding itself into these highly predictable stages? as much as i dont want my life to fall into the conventionals, social norms are so powerful in forcing people to conform and afraid of falling out. sad fact of life, and sad fact of being an aware sociologist.
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he came back. things start to need adjustments. when he's gone, i need to make adjustments to living without him around. when i finally got adjusted and feeling comfortable, he came back. when he's back, i need to make adjustments to having him in my plans again. and i finally got adjusted and feeling glad and the bliss that he' around. but only to get myself needing to get adjusted to even though he's around, he dont have time for me most of the days and i need to get it sorted out again.so much emotional turmoil and mental adjustments to make. i feel like im going through a super thriller roller coaster ride within this 6 months. seriously not enjoying it, but im not going to give that up.
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had my future plans planned out. 5-year work plan. totally stunned. within this 5-year, i will find myself having to start from scratch again once, and to start from scratch again at the end of it. well done. its a great idea, and a great plan and change for me if i really get it all worked out. im feeling excited about it, and i really hope it can unfold itself in my life.as much as i will hope marriage plans and set in early in my plan, i realise its not possible within the next at least 7 years unless my potential husband is in the workforce now. great. the organization that im working in will not like my plan. lol.
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