03/06/04
if u have to be late, dun wear sumthing bright! - miss gan
she said tat when qiuhong was late for econs lecture on monday morning. hong jie wearing the bright yellow aquila t-shirt then. so funny.
if im to follow the timetable. means tat i have to wake up like normal weekdays days and make sure i get to school by 7.30am and start studying until it closes tat 7.30pm and still continue to study until my bedtime at 11.30 pm. juz like a perfect mugger and sum stupid computer-programmed moron. but then again, tats wat we are supposed to be...
stupid incidents occur in again and im not willing to mention anything about it. i juz hate those things. get lost man... i muz study, i muz study, i muz study.
fabian: i wan to borrow
|mood:pissed off|
i feel like a princess man. recently not feeling very well ma, then everybody like special treatment.. haha...
whole gang give up going to fast food juz to accomodate me, then michelle de "jeraldine, u can only eat soup noodle" then RA rush qiuhong to eat faster but neva rush me. ZW purposely go and buy beancurd for me juz becuz i want. haha.. princess treatment only available when im sick... *sob sob*
but anyway, thanx everyone. i shud be ok le. can eat everything *almost only* liao... hehe. realised tat im beginning to start talking again today? its a good sign man... thanx everyone!!
|mood:well again|
|song:ming ming hen ai ni-pin guan & liang jing ru|
04/06/04
i told u i hate technology rite? i seriously hate it!!!
thanx fabby, lend me all the notes and tutorials... thanx dear.
zhiwei de bag kena stolen in school today. 3 bags lost all together. M and this other CBLC ger also lost their bags. dunno which idiot. luckily i dind bring sling bag today.
ZW: dun be so sad la. i noe tat bag means alot to u... i'll turn tat person upside down and inside out and kill him when we catch the culprit...
|mood:pissed by technology|
09-06-04
ok, no time. so have to summarise. have to go sleep if not cannot wake up in time for TC. shall go into details when i got chance. (provided i remember)
these few days no time, no chance for me to go online. too busy le *but not with studying*
1) excuse me for god sake, WC can u update
2) sorry huili, no chance to read
3) my evadearest beloved ber, waiting impatiently for u to come back. exams near muz study hor. *remember the words of mr ang!!* plus im so sorry from 27th onwards we all got exams, so cant entertain u for the first few days.
4) damn lag. got alot of things haven do. top on the list is studying for exams, then buy stuff for sumbody... and i haven finish the ****.
5) yeah, watching harry potter with WC and gang *hopefully, blinkz, dun PS me* i noe i lag, but i got no time remember?
6) last, i dun think anybody remembered but fabian will be back today i think. tat means tat i muz faster finish copying the maths everything which i haven started. oops. if u happen to see this fabby, spare me few more days k. *if its urgent*
yeah can go sleep. damn tired. TC again tmr... but fun, cool...
|mood:tired cum fun|
11/06/04
wah damn depressed. was trying to cook sumthing to fill my empty stomach (yes, im cooking cuz i really very hungry) then here comes my beloved father, scolding me for putting too much oil. haiz... but then, haha.. he cooking for me now... yeah! but still depressed.
im so disgusted by those whu used unscrupulous means to acheive wat they want, even if its mean betraying those whu are close to u. not tat its happen on me, but im juz totally disgusted. this type of people better not appear in front of me. cuz i'll despise them. if u are my fren and happen to belong to this type of people, u better get out of my life silently (leave me with a good impression) before i find out by myself. u'll die a horrible death if u dun.
oops, loss of image, but i juz cant stand this kind of people. *not tat i got any image rite from the start, haha* dun feel like going for the camp tmr, how? haiz, sumbody tell me wat to do?
|mood:depressed|
|song:si miao- zhange feng qi|
12/06/04
hey cute jie (me ) going for camp le, so dun ask me where am i got the nxt 2 days. and dun miss me k *not like anybody on the rite mind will*
anyway, today very important eh. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FABBY!!! sorry la, cute jie go camp cannot celebrate for u. anyway i think ur BC frens will book u first b4 us (the cip team). so hope u spend ur special day wisely la, most importantly muz be happy k, at least for today. haha. muz study hard at the same time ah, dun only noe how to play. study hard for mid years k. dun forget our promise ah. follow ur hectic timetable shud do the trick. jia you ba.
pray hard for me tat the camp will be a nice one. hope its not so bad. lousy camp tat only end at 9.30 PM. so damn late. and yes, i know i haven been sudying for my exams. i will study, after my camp, i swear! so dun worry too much for me (esp to huili and jiemin, and maybe sam *under min's influence*) anyway, thanx for worrying for me. wish me luck for my camp.
|mood:dread going for this camp|
|song:happy birthday to fabian - cute jie|
14/06/04
yeah, finally back from camp!
to esther: ya, the famine camp.
to huili: going to start le la. tmr, cuz today too tired from camp.
purposely wake up super early today cuz i need to chiong go town to buy sumthing, then meet the cip people to celebrate fabby's bday. whu noes halfway tell me fab sick, cannot go school. oh my poor thing, bday still sick. gald tat u noe u shudnt had gone out, but if u had fun then shud be no prob.
anything couldnt find the thing tat i wnated, so went back kovan then went home. damn tired, so go home sleep. wanted to go out and study at nite, but then end up watching tape, cuz my mother going to return the tape soon, then exams coming so wun be able to watch the show on tv. so today let me slack first, tmr will start my pia-ing session.
let me explain wat happen during the past week.
1) teachers' conference (TC)
the whole thing was so cursed. first ZW de bag kena stolen. then he fell sick during TC, then kena scolded by the i/c for drawing on the table (not me, it was jian rong), then got the digi cam got stolen, etc etc. like so not wat lo. but it was fun la.
2) famine camp
camp was fun, actually. except when sum stupid facilitators went to sabotage my group and take revenge on CS and ZW. damn childish. pls lo, i bet they went NS liao lo, still take revenge on kids younger than them. oh my god, wat has become of the world. i actually survived the 30 hrs, and another 30 mins. not bad wat, at the rate i'm eating for the past dunno how many months, still can survie, not bad ah. great achievement.
k fine, dunno wat to say le. i'm bored.
|song:bei ban qiu de gu dan - ocean|
16/06/04
yday nite went out to study, so i wrote this in my blue notebook:
01.59 a.m
so excited, heard angeline's song dedication on 933 fm juz now, so unexpected. if it wasnt tat i came out to study, i wudnt had heard. if it wasnt tat i've decided to give a try to test the reception, i wudnt had heard it. the voice was so weet, so cute, so familiar. i had the gut feeling tat it was the angeline tat i knew, until when i heard she mention my name, Sr, chris and SJ, i confirm its her. so nice, so touching to hear it from a fren. ha, and she especially mention my name cuz she knew i will still be awake. cool. love my angel lotz.
yday went out to study, nice. finished copying fab's notes but not the tutorials yet. will rush, cuz he haven study finish. but greatest achievement yday nite was not the studying. i finished the ****. yeah! i think this one super nice lo. so proud of myself. cant wait to see the reaction. keke. so happy...
|mood:so happy|
|song:xiu xiu xiu - ocean|
today, super cool. not really la, juz tat i happy ma.
wake up at 11, watch tv, then left home to heartland find huili.
suppose to pass ur econs wkbk cuz i help her take from school. not bad ah, ask SK to teach her probability, can cheng ji go out with him, scheming ah ger.
then went singapore post to study with juanz. really nice to meet up with her (though i juz meet her not long ago, abt one week la). had a fun time studying with her (talking most of the time). thanx for the 2 mind-stimulating maths question tat we took 2 hrs to come out with the answer (fabian's effort, i asked him to help me solve) after consulting so many people.
saw ma'am melissa and ma'am minyu too, they walked pass mac. long long time since i last saw them. asked them maths too, then tok abit la before going to continue face the 2 maths qn.
went home after tat, had a super long tok with juanz on the way, tok crap and lame lame abit... so fun. tmr continue studying trip.. more fun to look forward to.. cool. love juanz...
|mood:super happy|
|song:xiang-zhang feng qi|
17/06/04
oh ya, i forgot to add. JUSTICE achieved!!!!
yday nite on yes 933 the DJ asking people about the perverted acts of teachers or any weird teachers in school. then sumone sms in to tok about his history teacher in JC tat wheneva u neva do his homework or fail his usual quizes, the teacher will punish them by asking them to copy chapters of nites within a day! sounds familiar? sounds like stephen tay rite?
oh my god, got people complain about him, i'm so happy lo. justice ah! and summore tat person is his ex-student lo. haha.. so funny. *jeraldine dun be evil la, he's a nice teacher lo* ok la, shan't be so bad. at least he's good to me.. haha...
|song:every other time- LFO (jester send de, nice)|
18/06/04
ok, now i get wat they mean by "its not safe for gers to go out and study at nite, ALONE!" damn it. for the past 2 days ok de lo, but not until this morning.
1 hour b4 i'm leaving the airport and here comes sum idiots distracting me from my econs MCQ. if i dun get my 80% this time, its all bcuz of them! and tat stupid cup of coffee made me feel super sick after tat. almost end up throwing up everything.
and the best thing is i dind do anything lo. i was juz sitting there doing my TYS and *ta da*... something happened. shall not tok about it already. now it really make me feel not safe, but i need to study! details is in my blue notebook. if u happen to wan to noe wat happened, go see my blue notebook.
i wan to go sleep. later meeting juanz and sianz at 11 at bugis. plus at nite praying hard tat da ge ge bring me go eat supper with iris they all b4 driving me to study. sleep for 2 hours i also shuang...
|mood:scared|
|song:remember- qiu ze|
19/06/04
k fine, tat stupid cup of coffee really make me sick (literally, tats wat sianz taught me to say). went to the lousy doc and he said its gastric upset cuz i drank coffee on empty stomach. then give me all kinds of colourful medicine tat is proven ineffective again. yday whole day eat medicine le also still feel sick sia. lousy doctor, i really wonder how he got his license.
anyway went out with juanz and sianz to get sumthing yday. kaoz, really noe how to spend sia. went out with $40+ and went home with less than $2. like wat juanz say, we seriously muz learn how to save. *actually i save le, if not also wun have $40+ to go out with* long tok with them again, so fun.
da ge ge brought me out yday nite! together with iris, hweemin, agnes, peishan, dan dan and tongboon. damn cool lo. went for a spin in his car from east coast to esplanade, then back to east coast, then went changi village east supper b4 they head back to east coast. cuz they doing recce for nite cycling. was toking to them and alot of things la. its so nice to go out with them!!! i really miss those people sia.. wonder when's the time i get to see them again...
reached at 2 plus, luckily got car drive me there. fortunately the 3 idiots wasnt there. phew! but not really consrtuctive, cuz i was damn tired. reached late and went off early summore. lousy la me.. anyway, have to really full-scale chiong liao.. cuz super lag. dun wan to break my promise...
|mood:tired..tired|
|song:ming tian jian-wang xin ling|
20/06/04
k fine, i think i'm really getting sick. after proven by xiao di and juanz. according to them, i overworked myself. but cant be helped, i'm lagging in studies. ok, i know i started late, k fine, i deserve it.
all thanx to tat stupid cup of coffee, tat triggered the virus system in my body, i'm experiencing diminishing marginal returns now, and the marginal cost of working so hard is way above the marinal revenue. in simple words, this means tat i need to put in alot of effort juz to get very minimal understanding of the topics. tat's hopelessly lag.
huili's bday!!! my ever-greatest beloved, wonderful marvelous princess 18th bday today! happy birthday dear. dun think too much about SK, if u dun like him then u dun. do wateva ur heart wans to.. jia you!
|mood:tired^infinity|
|song:bei ban qiu de gu dan-ocean|
21/06/04
yday went mingshu house in the afternooon cuz she wan to celebrate her bday, then finally got then chance to meet up with my long time no see frens like sooling and xiaojie. and of cuz not forget the rest of my tk gang like beeteng and lisi they all. and most importantly, huiting!!! finally lo. haven get to see her eversince her choir concert.
and guess wat? learnt from her tat yanleng got into the 'singapore idols' top 100! i was like, 'oh my god, u lying to me is it?' kind of thing. but then, aiya, he really can sing de la. if not also wun get into choir rite. he's not tat kind of choir people like joshua tan lo. cannot sing still get choir vice-pres kind of thing. oops, it bad to tok behind people's back.
these 2 days rested alot le, so dun scold me say i neva take care of myself. u all n=know whu u all are la hor. anyway thanx for the concern la, esp the msg from fab tat says dunno wat ' for goodness sake pls take care of meself. very worrying one.. body very fragile muz learn to exercise more caution'. haha, tat one super funny lo, so i neva delete. kaoz, super funny lo. know come and think, i still laughing lo. but anyway, thanx la. i know i very worrying, but seriously, i will take care of myself de la. u all dun worry for me k.
ok, going back to sleep b4 going to study again tonite. huiting going!!! yeah!!!
|mood:sleepy|
|song:ming ming hen ai ni|
23/06/04
so tired. gosh. i think i really tire myself out these few days.
yday slept less than 5 hrs and still run abt almost the whole of singapore. haha, kidding. juz went to school to consult fabian about numerical solutions, then went SP find juanz, then went back tk for campfire.
nice to see all my juniors again. sarah, bao bei, clara, jieman, etc etc la. all of them so cute. and so glad tat sarah is still able to be so innocent and cute despite being exposed to all the politcs and stuff. so proud of her. sad to say, i juz dun like the kind of attitude tat her squadmates have la. (not toking abt her, bao bei and xingqi). feel so distant from RCY liao... haiz..
went study as usual, then saw edwin eh. the world is so small sia. he really mature le wor. not as anti-social as b4. so fun...
then went home to sleep first b4 going to the history mock exam. but then ah, sleeping almost caused me my life man. almost overslept and missed the test lo. luckily fabian msg-ed me to wish me good luck, then accidentally woke me up. tats my 'sister in school uniform' *adaptation from knight in shinning armour*. by then already 1210 le, then my test at 120 lo. heng i got to school on time man. rushed like mad of cuz. then thru-out the whole mock test, 3 hrs i slept for more than 2 hrs lo. neva die b4 ah. luckily its only a trial test, if not ah, mid-yrs really dun need to pass liao la. heng again ah. now muz go and sleep le, if not tonite also no need to study liao. today crucial lo, cuz my exams officially starts on friday... argh!!!!
|mood: almost cant survivied|
|song: ming tian jian-cyndi|
24/06/04
haven been able to eat/drink/sleep well ever since the famine camp and sick from tat stupid cup of coffee. die. at this rate, how can i possibly do well for my mid-year man? no appetite, plus everytime i eat sumthing i feel like throwing up. haiz.. (ya i noe, sum of u will be asking 'how many months ah?', joking i noe, but i think its not funny, cuz i really very uncomfortable, if u noe how sick i'm feeling)
one day at most 2 meals with less than 5 mouthful of food, how to survive? even though my stomach may be having a revolution, i still no appetite. but not tat i wan rite. i juz dun have the appetite. plus i so hyperactive everytime, use up energy even faster only. haiz, forget it. i dun wan to tok about it le. juz pray hard for me tat i faster get better.
tmr my history paper one leh. been studying history for the past 2 days, pia like hell. but things goes in 5 times as slow as it come out. how? die liao la. yday cant even answer tat few simple questions for the trial test, how can i possibly do my exam tat is like tmr? and i feel so not enough time. for resting and for studying. dun feel like sleeping now, though i staying up for the whole nite yday and going to school to ask fab teach me maths later. neva mind, tonite rest early can liao. hopefully.
argh!!! i think i going crazy le. dun tell me i stress myself up, cuz i've been slacking. how, how, how? can sumone tell me how i can help myself? i seriously going berserk soon. *i'm juz putting up a false front if i look perfectly fine and happy in front of u all* i sompa k.
|mood:speechless|
|song:ning mong cao de wei dao-jolin|
25/06/04
if u know wat happened, dun mention anything about it anymore.
if u dun know wat happened, dun ask anything. i'll tell u if i wan.
(my class people, dun say anything le. its over liao)
my greatest nitemare happened. i had an instinct tat it would. but at tat point of time, i wasnt sure. but now confirm. i tried, and i tried very hard. but i juz cant. i cried. i dind blame anyone, or anything. i blamed myself. u all say is not my fault, but if it happened, isnt it my fault? i allowed it to happen eh. i've been thinking, but nothing wants to come out of my mind. argh!! i dunno la.
anyway, thanx everybody whu tried consoling me. at least i noe whu cares.
thanx doctor tan (shu juan la) for her wonderful marvelous advice yday. *although i followed but dind work out* i stressed myself up la, so not her fault. at least she cares lo. more effective than the doctor tat i went to.
thanx fabby for ur concern and advice too. will try to follow and see how la. if i dun get better, then i also dunno how liao...
advice for sumone out there: perhaps u haven tok-ed to me for a long time, perhaps u haven seen me ard. but if u dun noe anything, juz save ur comments can? i keep quiet doesnt mean u can continue lo. its always when i wan to look u up then the comments always come at this point of time when i got fed up. keeping quiet doesnt means i admit defeat. u dun have to go ard boasting. its disguised victory.
|mood:super duper depressed|
|song:mo ri zhi lian-zhang zhi cheng|
26-06-04
i said i tell u if i wan. i told juanz, xiao di, and my parents. happened to told qinhong and dorrane (2A01 de) cuz they asked about it. dun ask me y dorrane, i also dunno, juz happen to take the same bus as me when we were going home after exams.
so far, managed to cover micro-econs, half of macro. history, dun tok about it, paper 1 finished tested. left paper 2. maths, touched abit, been enlightened by fabian for certain topics. tats good man. but econs got some difficulties leh, encountered some questions tat i cant find answers... but so much for pia-ing days and nites for the past 2 weeks, shud be ok rite?
i noe i neglected alot of people, but shud be forgiveable rite? me study ma... hehe. but sorry ah ber, cant accompany u when u come back cuz i got exams...
and jiemin, ya la, i've been studying. and studying hard too. so dun need to worry for me. i've been worrying for myself, but shud be ok.
alot of people to thank:
1) huili-thanx for ur concern. ur msg, wateva. thanx alot ger. me ok liao le. juz very angry with myself for not being able to think. but im seriously ok la... thanx
2) ll, ZW, qiuhong, PS, yanhui-thanx for consoling me. at least i noe whu cares la. me juz very agitated tats all. and LL, really thanx alot, u really did alot for me.
3) xiao di, qinhong and juanz-thanx for listening to me and all the advices and consoling. i'm fine now.
4) juanx and fabian-ur health advices and encouragements had been seriously taken to heart and best followed closely. juz pray hard tat can pass thru only...
5) and the whoeva i missed out, u all belong to this category la.. thanx
oh ya, b4 i forget. good luck to everybody for the coming examz! i noe alot of us cant finish studying our syllabus, but ya, still muz jia you. good luck. *by the way, i still need divine intervention*
|mood:last words b4 exams|
|song:xia yi zhan tian hou-twins|
28/06/04
thanx god man! did anybody help me pray for the divine intervention tat i needed? if yes, thanx man! cuz i think it really happened. cuz the topics tat i praying for (except demand and supply, and keynesian) came out! inflation and unemployemtn!!! wohoo!!! so excited. *i juz realised i spelled keynesian wrongly on my script, shit*
so glad tat i dind panic, i dind loss focus, i dind screw up during the paper for econs essay. if not history would have repeated. hengz!!! i'm so happy!!! maths was ok la... i calculated, max shud be able to get 31. not too bad, cuz i dind really touch. brother say he will get 20. da sao was saying he lousy.. haha...
so happy to see brother today!!! very long neva see him le!!! not to mention also most of my classmates. *although i juz saw them last friday* people like LL, alfred, qiuhong, PS, chris!!! *she cut hair, so cute!!* huili!! and yanhui!!! ah, and cannot forget, brandon!!! so happy to see them!!! *ok, i'm getting excited*
before econs hor, i think i nervous until my gastric and back also pain. and is acute pain tat kind leh. scared me to death man. luckily awhile only, then slightly before exam start then ok le. hengz sia. haha.. i begin to feel blessed...
oh ya, report: juz now before econs ah, was studying with yanhui and huili and qiuhong. then i begin to panic and nervous la. then was niam-ing alot of nonsense about very scared. then yanhui told me "this exam u dind do well neva mind. if u dunno how to do, this time dun cry. cuz main thing is prelim and 'A's. juz dun panic, no need scared de". i mean ya la, i get the idea. and i noe this is not the rite attitude. but seriously have to thanx yanhui, cuz if she neva pay special attention to me, i think i seriously will panic and etc etc la. then in the end wun perform for econs. thanx yanhui... begin to love u as much as huili le.. haha... thanx alot man, it helped me heaps..
the rest of the papers... everybody jia you!!! not only to my class people... u all jia you!!!
|mood:excited!!!|
|song:you yuan qian li - sun yao wei & noriko sakai|
29/06/04
did i mention tat i was very fascinated by the new singapore currency? saw it on the news, but dind see it until sunday.
cuz sunday me, huiting, madeline and qinhong went airport ma. then when qinhong and madel decided to eat lunch then he gave me the $10 note. for wat i also dunno. then still joking with him say 'so good ah, give me money'. then after tat was playing with the nite then i realised its the new currency. damn nice lo. super fascinated! then ask him if can change with me, then he say cannot. wah, selfish brat. anyway he also spending tat $10 wat, give the cashier also dun wan to change with me. hem.. wonder how i can get hold of the new currency. k fine, i sua gu can? neva see b4 ma... i wan the new currency!!!
mother, i receive ur card le. thanx for the encouragement. dun think tat way ma. u already do alot for me le. u make me feel as though im the most fortunate kid on earth lo. although we seldom meet up, seldom tok, but i noe u concern about me all the time and miss me so much, can le. me also miss u so much ma. i also wish to everyday tok to u, everyday see u in school. but too bad la, cannot. alot of things, not within our control, then juz let it be lo. i've constantly been doing wat im supposed to do, juz tat i dind tell anyone. so dun worry for me. anyway under school pressure, its impossible for me not to do it. u noe wat im trying to drive at, so i dun say. cuz i dun wan other ppl to noe. if u dun understand then ask me la. u take care k. i noe u going US soon liao, going so far alone can really get boring, but dun forget we will always be here for u, at least i will. love ya.
was being abit of childish, abit of petty, abit of sarcastic, abit of irritating, abit of panicky, abit of out-of-mind, abit of everything bad. so actually, muz say sorry to everybody la. perhaps ther is really a need to register for hougang chalet or sumthing. i got a feeling tat this abit of everything will stay quite long.. or maybe perhaps i dind survive the exam fever... haha.. see wat i mean, the abit of out-of-mind... haha.. dunno la..
oh ya, muz apologise to jeanali. was being mean. sorry. but if u dun get wat i mean then neva...
|mood:siao|
|song:gu dan bei ban qiu-ocean|
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