and so.... dear jiale is so bored in the middle of the night that she strikes again.
been talking to alvin for dunno how many hours, and im still talking to him. hearing troubles, giving advices, complaining stuff to each other. basically, good frens are just 'xin qing la ji tong' (心情垃圾桶). well, he has his own problems, i have my own complaints, and ya, we need some outlet to input too (: since we haven been talking via email lately... lets hope he faster find his answer.. then he wun be so fan anymore...
private diary versus public blog (adapted from soci term) = cannot anyhow post issues that are too sensitive or thoughts that you dun wan certain people to know about it.
sometimes.. i just so feel like strangling somebody who keep making empty promises like nobody's business. seriously speaking i felt a relative waste of time going for practice yday. once again proven empty promises again. can you just wake up ur idea?
realise that we have to perform 3 days: 9th, 10th and 13th.
realise that we only have 3 practices.
realise that almost only my uni frens are going except until when i reminded alvin that he promised to go.
knew that it will screw up.
knew that you wun be there.
hey... its joshua tan's bday!!!! happy birthday dude! fabian, if ure reading this, do talk to him once in awhile... i think he missed bullying u sometimes... haha. *in case most people dunno wats going on, we all have deep deep hatred again joshua tan!!! haha. that irritating, always-bully-fabian creature* dun be surprise im still talking to him on the phone once in awhile. haha.
just ended talking to alvin. we both going sleep le!!!! and stop calling me hamster!!!!!
reporting time: 3.32 am. nitez. jiale bids farewell for now (:
09-02-06
happy birthday to jiemin!
can actually understand how u felt when u msg-ed me that morning. its just quite upsetting when the ones closest to you forgot about it. the impact is just not as great as the rest of the world forgot about it. the closest always matters the most.
time past very fast. 6 months gone... since school start... since we're together. how many more half a year can we have? i wonder...
after intensive practice marathon... the day is finally here. but i still feel kind of 'everything-is-still-not-in-place'. pray hard that everything falls nicely at 7pm.
been feeling quite unwell these few days. perhaps the practice marathon forced my body to go on protest. but well, it'll be over soon. maybe...
performance over le. was informed that i wun be involved on monday. but im already going to school. wud not be going if im informed earlier, then i wun have planned RP on that day. time wastage! but guess its ok. just camp in the central library will do.
thurs was not so good. but not too bad either i guess. friday was better. but guess it doesnt matter much.
given 2 voluntary projects to work on during the mid sem. the prison one sounds cool enough, so i just filled myself in. experience as well as understanding for my module i guess. the other was just another easy money making opportunity that take up the least time.
yet another quarrel. just felt that deep sense of distrust. but it made sense. im just not sensitive enough. mistake. dont talk about it anymore.
jiemin: its inevitable la. i wud have felt the same way too. in fact, i feel it every year.
i think i owe some people some catching up. my 2 brothers, and sister. but i dunno when. oops.
ARGH!!!! SHE'S SO PRETTY!!!! I THINK IM FALLING IN LOVE WITH HER!!! sorry dear, i think im going to give u up for her... but i think she dun want me.. haha. she got bf le :(
oops! but she's so pretty, and super nice ger.. so hard not to fall in love with her!!! oops!
today no school!!! so i went to cut my hair!!!
let me recall...
sat was supposed to go cycling. but in the end, some unhappiness called it off. but everything's is fine now, better than before! and i got my vday present. super super nice. quite stunned actually, that he remembered something that i said was cute when we went for zhiwei's bday celebration. but i was only joking back then. but still... i loved the effort put in and add-ons. astonishingly beautiful!
sunday went city hall, combed the entire area for aimless shopping cuz i was supposed to be in for a surprise. ended up spending money on not so necessary stuff. the nite was good. was watching the fireworks display with qinhong. felt the deepest sense of "xin fu-ness", like as though the fireworks was there just for me. wah... thanx dear! :)
and that was the surprise that was meant for me :)
no wonder he insisted on going to suntec for shopping even though i suggested elsewhere.
no wonder he didnt know where to go and wat to do. normally he wud have researched first before setting off.
at least i got to see him on vday unlike esther, who needed qinhong to pass present to yiqin on her behalf.
anomie. relative deprivation. but esther saved me...im not so deprived anymore. thanx sweetheart... my saviour! haha.
and so i missed the cycling trip again by getting myself sick. dunno how it happened but it just did. everything was quite bad, highest record 39.6 d. finally got it down to 37.4 but it shot all the way to 38.1 again.
had to trouble dear to take care of me the entire day, stayed over and continue to be my private nurse throughout, and book in this morning. must have been tough on him. do everything for me cuz im almost paralysed in bed.
next week mid sem break. just have to get all my studies done, projects started, readings and preparing for term tests. seems like impossible task. but i will, and have to do it!
high fever for 2 days and finally my mum brought me to see chinese doc this morning.
apparently the doc say is meningitis. according to my medicine fren, its quite serious, supposed to be warded. but the doc happily let me off back home, after giving me tonnes of chinese medicine that i think can last me 1 week.
according to the online dictionary:
meningitis: Pronunciation: "me-n&n-'jI-t&s
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural men·in·git·i·des /-'ji-t&-"dEz/
Etymology: New Latin
1 : inflammation of the meninges and especially of the pia mater and the arachnoid
2 : a usually bacterial disease in which inflammation of the meninges occurs
in simple terms, according to my medicine fren:
3: consistent high fever that lead to the inflammation of any of the 3 membrane that envelop the brain and the spinal cord. serious cases may lead to retardation or coma.
and so.. great. wat am i doing here at home? but i feel perfectly fine.
poh, her mum and dad, and my medicine fren, all tried to psycho me to seek advice of western doctor.
but what if i am to admit to the hospital? i dun wan!!!! i scared pain!!! and i dun wan all the tubes in and out of me!!!! eekz!!! yuks!!!
growl!
i just hate being sick for not being able to eat anything else except porridge. and esp when every other things seem to taste/smell/look nicer than just porridge.
and all i can eat, is either plain or fish porridge, yukkz! i dont mind eating plain porridge. but if im only able to eat fish porridge, i rather starve myself to death than to eat it. NEVER!!!!! I hate and i'll neva and i dont want to like it! NEVER!!! yukz!
and so... ive decided to skip all my meals today.
*even though i've promised not to skip meals, i still have to!*
kinda feeling alot better already.
been spending the past few days (from tues to fri) studying... marketing, social psych, calculus, and of cuz, psych. cuz friday got mid term test.
the test was crap, negative marking, and so many tonnes of names, terms and theories. thought i needed zikang's divine intervention more than anything else from heaven. hope it wasnt too bad afterall.
i have something in mind, but i dunno what to say about it. perhaps some other time i guess...
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