Celebrated my birthday last saturday. everything was busy busy... and so flustered since morning. when the TK peeps (who extremely surprisingly came on time) came i was still in a quite chui state. luckily there was poh and qinhong to come early and help me out with things. its like early birds came and we're still not dressed for the occasion yet. but luckily its not like as though they haven seen me chui before, and it wasnt for long anyway.

hurriedly dressed myself up before poh and qinhong, while they sit inside the aircon to enjoy themself while im out in the heat to entertain my guests. it wasnt really very hot, but we're just too flustered.

all thanks to poh, the ugly duckling transformed into a beautiful swan on that day. that elegant white semi-formal dress is really... beautiful. thanx poh, for making me pretty that day :)



luckily for my birthday, if not i seriously wont know when im going to see this dude, long time friend whom i got to know since beginning of sec 1. usually meet on a yearly basis, but i suppose we're going to meet twice this year then... haha

the tk peeps, be it FS, tk gang or rcy represented by xiao jie, im just so glad that they came. seeing them is like one of the best feeling on earth, its just like being surrounded by people that you're very familiar with since young, like you know nothing will go wrong with them around you. even if things go wrong, its all going to be right again with them.

the JC people, my beloved class and brothers... the newer feeling like seems to take another important place in my heart, something that is accompanying me since the days of tk are gone. the kind of 'being protected' feeling... very heart warming, very nice.


this group of people is very special, full of conflicts, but yet still together. they accompanied me on the last phase of study, and definitely made the lonely uni life all fun again. full of memories, happy and sad, laughters and tears. glad that i know the jokers, and great that we have a bunch of soci compatriots to fight the battle together. studying is somewhat tough with all the deadlines, but its all enjoyable again with them.
and those are the groups of people whom i invited and came. wasnt really alot of people cuz i just wan things to go around as small a scale as possible. even such a small scale, i also cant handle.

in fact, i wasnt really happy that day and on my birthday itself. given my character, i only want to see down and talk to everybody, properly. but i cant even do that. too many people, too little time. too many temptations to move around and talk to everybody, only one me.

i yearn to listen what everybody says, i yearn to enjoy everybody's company. just by my side, on my birthday. i want, but i cant. i really wish i can split myself into so many so many parts, to keep everybody company. but i cant. im sad.

so many so many presents, but i dont give a damn. all i want is to sit down and talk to them. but i guess i shud be happy enough that i spent the most time with the FS girls.

after the party, i want to go out with them. but i cant. almost none of them are going out, and i need to pack up. by the time im done, i found myself sitting at home in front of the tv, eating and munching on bread and curry that my mom cooked for the party.

but im glad i was at home to watch 'duo mao mao'... i guess thats the happiest thing that happen on that day besides the company of everybody present :)

and then its... open presents time!


OMG!!!! this is like totally handmade by huiting and materials gathered by puay yee. and the very pretty pink series assorted accessories and their birthday messages in the last drawer... so sweet!!!!the CIP team and zhiwei didnt come, but i definitely had a surprise when fabian brought their present to me on their behalf!

thats the very pretty dress that i wore for my birthday party, and i really love it alot. thanx poh!


edwin's all the way in australia, but he still send me flowers and chocolate! its a deal to celebrate our birthdays together when he's back from all his flying.


maybe its part of getting old, but im beginning to feel nothing much about birthday. its really like what the guys always say... 'its just another day'. there's really not much feeling about the supposed 'big day'...

perhaps the only meaningful thing about this year's 6th may is that it is not just my 21st birthday, but also the 21st month after me and qinhong got together.

went out together with qinhong, had a good lunch with him and pretty much good time spent. things are pretty good for now, and i hope things will continue to be as good in time to come.

my only concern now is that i cant really find suitable employment to accommodate my schedule that is somewhat off for normal working hours. not much choice to chose from, but i'll see how it goes.