political philosopher Jean-Jacques Rousseau argued that people are naturally good and like him, i used to belief in the good nature of all human too i.e. 人之初性本善. even despite encounters with people who are obviously super interest-motivated, and self-centered, and egocentristic. (egocentristic not equals to egoistic).
but after interacting with one of those closer to me within the past week, i serious think that i shud just eradicate this thinking in me. for the fun of it, i decided to test out my long-withheld hypothesis. but, experiment failed terribly. kinda of like super disapppointing. i shouldnt believe in human nature anymore. i shud reserve my trust until individuals are proven otherwise. i need to re-evaluate those guys around me.

have appointment with yanhui on sun to go studying together. cool, im looking forward. going to send beng off on sat, depending on the time, or maybe i'll be going no matter wat. i just need some time off from some matters in mind. but im not taking time off from studying.

i was crying on the bus on sat, while listening to some songs on my mp3. i just thought of some very sad incidents that happened some time ago. something that i've lost quite some time back. sad. double sad. triple sad. sad to power of infinity.

i've lost the ring that 2 of my frens gave to me last year. some meaning attached to it: a farewell present. never want to get that replaced. because i only want that one and only one.

im feeling happiest when im surrounded with my school frens. i miss school times. meaning in tk, sr and uni.