the happiness and satisfactory level of the grades that you get is no longer dependent on whether it reaches what you aim, but on how others around you gets.

allow me to illustrate the issue with an example...

when i was working on the power term paper with Eugene, we were aiming to get at least B so that we will have the possibility of getting an overall grade of at least a B or B-.

i received a call from eugene when i was on the way to school with qinhong, telling me that muilian and xiao ling got A- for their term paper. got back my term paper, was quite sad, but it was STILL OK. qinhong said B+ was ok too. when i called eugene to tell him about the grade, he was SO disappointed cuz we knew what ml and xl got.

after the call, i was VERY NOT OK. i suddenly thought that B+ was very lousy and wateva crap that followed after that. when reasoning it out, eugene said that if we had gotten better grade then we will be ensured a higher overall grade since power is very hard to score.

you see the work of cognitive dissonance and social influence here and its all very scary. you are no longer in the position and the control of your feelings. that's how you know that you are a social being within the much bigger social reality.

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i concluded tat i am not the kind of person who can participate in unorthodox money making investments avenue:

1. i had neva gotten any prize in any occasions of lucky draw.
2. on the day i received my pink ic, my mom bought 4D on my behalf based on the number of my ic. the number dind win, but it did on the weeks before and after i got my ic.
3. yday bought 4D for the second time based on another set of number which i got today. the first 2 sets of number came out 1st and 3rd position within the last 2 weeks. when my aunt bought the number for me yday, it dind came out.

based on the above 3 events, i shall stick to the conclusion i made at the start of this post. in addition to tat, everybody can safely keep in mind tat im not going to, and have no intention to buy 4D. everything add together means.... im not a gambler and money waster... haha

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i cut away all my nails cuz the 'scratching' season is back in place. the last time it happen was almost 1 year ago... and now its back.

its either the weather, or im stress. i just feel the itch all over my body and i somehow cant help not scratching. the feeling totally sux to the core and scratch marks and skin damages has already been done. to prevent further damage to the haven-recover-from-last-year-effect skin, i decided to cut away all my nails to the extent that my fingers are now longer than my nails.

now my typing is almost totally silent unlike the usual machine gun typing sound... i wonder is this good or bad...