surprise!! :)

Grateful to those who stood by me and gave me the support and comfort that i needed during this period of time. you all may not have agreed to why i chose to do certain things, but thanks for the concern and not stopping me. thanks for all the advices, opinions and encouragement.

i dont deny that i wasnt ok for the initial part, but i wasnt living in denial. i dont deny that i was trying to buy time, because i thought i couldnt deal with it.

i was asking for a miracle, hoping that something will just suddenly happen and salvage this relationship. and the miracle came. in the other way. in the form of a friend.

talking to R really made me realise a lot of things about myself. i probably got too comfortable that i forgot that i knew how to fight. just because i havent been doing it for the past years doesnt mean i dont know how to. i was fighting. or so i thought, but in a different way, for a different cause.

i started to look at myself, and think. i find myself fighting against nothing, for nothing. i should be fighting for myself.

i sincerely thank R, for helping me rediscover myself after hiberating in the long comfy winter period. spring is coming... so why not embrace the sun and warmth?

winter will come again. but lets just take things one step at a time and deal with them slowly. enjoy the seasons change, because each season has its own beauty :)