shit... i forgot what i wanna say. i remembered thinking alot about it during gender lecture just now...

decided to let things dormant and wait for people to find me when they want to. kinda lazy to take the initiatives le. especially when i need to start mugging, i kinda need time for that.

i dont like to fight with people for things that i want. i dont like confrontation. if i need to fight for it, i rather give it up. i dont want things that i need to ask for. i will want to feel that things are there meant for me, i want things to come in whatever way they come, as i deserve it. even if it means something negative.

anyway, think i wanna met changzhi up before i dun get to anymore. he told me not to tell anyone, ya... better action before regret. very often regret occurs because action too slow, or worst still, no action at all.. i'll see what i can do for his case. i just wan to make sure i have time for my fren before he leaves my side. i know i'll miss him, esp when he was one of the few whom i was on better terms with during the jc years. kinda guilty that i neglected him after graduation.
was discussing about individuality during tutorial this week, and i kinda think the homoduplex thingy in my context is kinda slanted towards one side. altruism is a serious case. no one theory can explain the happenings of a society. just like how people will need a number of theories to understand what kind of person i am. i think soci is a good course :)

words dont diminish in value just because it is not spoken. as much as i didnt say, but i'll very much want you by my side when im down. wont you want to do the same? to be the first person there for me when i need you? just like how you will want me to be there when you need me, without the need for you to ask?

in anyway, im learning to be self-contented. decided to change back to my own self, when i was much happier, and carefree when it comes to thinking. i used to take things easy, not so hard on myself and the people around me. but as time past, i kinda lost that part of self, and become very insistent in things that i dun really feel that way, or things that i dun really want/need.

im kinda very happy with some comments that some people say about it :) i shud learn how to accept them instead of saying they're crazy :)

decided to join CSC next sem. probably going NVAC too. i wanna play with kids at the hospital... been very much wanting to go back to cheshire with zhiwei... the need for me to feel heartfelt happiness and hope.

met kathleen in the lib yday. great changes took place, kinda amazed by my backwardness. *guilty*

if you never fail to feel sad or cry all the time when you recall or talk about something, thats heartfelt sadness/pain. its bad to have that in you.lmething that i really need to put to heart:

“You can’t be the best at being everything you want to be, all the time. You have to decide what your priorities are. Be the best at the most important things, and let the other things go.”
(Dr. Chew See Ying Ken, Dr. Leslie’s graduate school mentor)

i like my gender tutor, she's really my inspiration. i love Dr. Leslie :)

watching 宫 during lesson cuz carol watching, then i see from the back row. she's so proud of herself that she managed to chiong 7 episodes last nite. haha... i think i wanna watch the whole show during the holidays after exams, esp when i wun be working...

can you have sex with somebody that you have no love for? males: yes. females: no. dats why we dun understand why men can go to prostitutes. but then... example during lesson. when you eat durain, will you want to know the owner of the stall? haha... we just burst out laughing during lecture... haha...