studied with juanx, weiee and bee at singpost today. talked to juanx for quite some time since we haven seen each other since the last mini tk gang outing. talked about our grandma and junie. juanx said something that really struck me. something that she dun like the feeling of being forgotten when she die. i guess, nobody will wan that to happen to themselves. its not very selfish to think that way, at least to me.
talking to these 2 people really make me think alot today, luckily i manage my emotions well enough so that i wun end up crying. i guess i really thought things through that's why. well, probably it just means another degree of determinance in me. somehow, things just work that way, and i just felt that way. dont ask me why, i dunno. when it happens, it happen.
slept for 12 hours, had some very weird dreams but i cant really recall the content. well, i guess its not very important after all. its just a dream.
was walking slowly from my house to tm starbucks just now, and some memories of tk flooded my mind. remembered how i always come home with bao bei after school, and we will always walk past the stadium before we can reach home. will always walk halfway and stare and observe the red ants running and clustering all over the poles of the stadium fence. will stand there for very long, move from pole to pole until we reach the end of the fencing. and so our journey home always take very long. will not take the traditional bus 10 or 31 home cuz i used to think that the bus journey very long, so i'll take the change bus routes home with huiting. but cuz bao bei dun like to change bus, so i got no choice but to give in. then it reminds me of how me and huiting always wait for bus 69 at bedok, looking at the 'bus park' (i derive from car park?) and start thinking of committing suicide, and come up with 101 ways of committing suicide. i think we can actually publish a book on that. our stupid ideas when we're young. and we always like to think of those that is not pain and die looking very beautifully kind. the funny thing is, we always think about it everytime we're at bedok interchange (we're always there cuz we always go home together), always think of the same thing everytime, but we're not sick of it. come and think about it now, i think we're quite crap.
i really like the feeling of being with familiar people, esp those who share memories with you. it makes me feel... being loved, cared for, and cherished. it feels really good, and i really like it.
listening to 'still fantasy' album today repeatedly. i think '后退' is like the previous album's '枫'. nice. this album have a lot of nice song. i like. listen to '听妈妈的话' and i thought, probably it will remind my dad of my grandma. there's quite a number of songs in the album that make me think alot. guess i'll just keep listening to it for the next one week (at least).
kinda like studying with edwin, super conducive. least he makes sure that i do my work. remember studying with him once at the airport before 'A' levels, talked alot that time about other stuff, kinda happy. am happy now too... neva mentioned about this, but im really proud to know him since primary sch. its like everybody remembers him for the talentime competition and he's like one of the smartest in the class? i mean, our class is like the elite class liao, competition very tense kind... well... dunno how to explain why im so proud of him... just accept it :)
carol's so sweet!!!! she did this for me and all her other frens:
so happy :)
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